Writer at cherlnell.com
Years living with Bipolar Disorder: 20
Brilliance: Words are my brilliance. I started writing at a very young age. I knew that I had a gift because of the way people reacted to my words; they touched them. The looks on their faces, the sounds they made, the laughter, and even the tears. I some how put people in “it” [my writing] and then proceed to take them through “it”. All while teaching them something along the way.
Beauty: My beauty is my strength.I have been through things you won't believe in this life; health challenges, abusive relationships, and others. I am still here though, still fighting, and still trying to change myself and the people around me. All of that is because of my strength. My Strength comes from the Creator, those that came before me, and those still with me that showed me how to wear my crown at all times. Most importantly my strength comes from me, we all have this inner-spring of strength inside of us that we have to learn to tap into when we need it. I am constantly learning how to tap into mine.
Boldness: I’m bold because I’m honest with myself and my audience. Even when it’s something that is perceived to be bad, if it’s me, it’s me. It may just be something I need to work on. I have love ones who say, “You put THAT on the internet?” I laugh and say, yes because sometimes it just takes one person to step up and say, “Hey this happened to me.” or “I did this...” so others won’t feel isolated. There is something powerful about having shared experiences so I share my experiences.
What brings me joy:
My son’s hugs
Music (R&B and Neo Soul are my favorites)
Telling stories (Written and orally, through poetry,short stories, etc.)
Talking to friends, family, and others.
Being at or watching a poetry open mic
Helping people (teaching, volunteering, listening etc.)
My Healing Power: When I was diagnosed with Bipolar at the age of 15, I was made to feel like there was something wrong with me. However what I have learned is that everyone has something and just because I have bipolar doesn’t mean that I can’t be great. I just have to learn to deal with what I have. To do that I need meds, therapists, doctors, etc. Don’t be afraid of mental health services they are there to help you. The point is you can’t let it stop you. You have to get the tools you need and fight back.